Another 26 hours shoot - Tumix

this shoot had really let me realize that i'm getting old. After being awake for 26 hours, I am extremely exhausted. Though I'm in the middle of a 2.5 million bungalow shooting for this food commercial, I can't enjoy it. Furthermore, it's on Valentines day. Though, there's no other half for me, but i pity those crews with gf/bf or wife who had to go thru Valentines day without their other half, furthermore a 26 hours working non-stop. The food shots took up a lot of time to get the right position for the powder to pour out. And I was even forced to be the hand talent - of course without paid. *sigh*

Finally an unexpected offer!!

Congrats myself! I finally land myself on a so-called permanent job after all these years.....got the offer 2 days before CNY and it's indeed an unexpected offer. Will only be the one in the office (which is at home..hehe) and without boss and subordinate.....hopefully things goes well and keep my finger cross....

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I've got son!!

Sponsored a kid from Mongolia thru World Vision A 5 yrs old boy named Bukunai, Erbol from Nalaikh, Mongolia. Just RM 50 per month and it's hopefully to make his life better. Really hope that i'm able to visit him one day.....

Memories lane...

Have a long chat with one of the producers about her childhood memories. It's terrific that she can even remember things that happened since she start crawling....Listening to her stories on her childhood with nannies (ma cheh), to how she's being bullied by boys, how's she had to learn doing housework due to older generation thinking of girls have to do all these stuff etc. On my way driving home, I kept thinking it's actually so fun to have that kind of memories to cherish, even though there's ups and down. As compare to her, my memories only start during my school time in primary school. Anything beyond that, I totally cannot recall. Even the memories during school times is merely only with my school mates, about how hard we need to study until 5 pm everyday and nothing as interesting as what she have with that kind of rural experience and fun. Hence, I always tell my frens that I do not have much sweet childhood memories to nibbles. I wish that my next generation will be able to have the chance to really enjoy the process of their childhood and leave some foot prints in their heart. How I wish I have a time machine to back track my life and change everything......

kids kids!!

just finish a shoot for CNY with bunch of kids around.....it's so tiring to work with kids listening to their 'noise' the whole day and yet you can't shout at them coz they are your talents. What if they won't act after you do that, and you will be blame for the rest of the day becoz of your stupid act to make the production a failure. Two days of shoot are all outdoor and I got over burnt as a result of not applying sun block.....hehee.......well...at least i got a 1k increment this time.

See Higher.....

A very appropriate photo to illustrate the idea "Don't be upset over gloomy days, seek higher and further and you'll find the sun"

It's a beginning or an end?

New Year 2007! Everything should be new, hope and resolutions should be in everyone, but why? It's not with me at all. Had been feeling very down yesterday night after digging out my old old dear diary from the book shelves and run through all the diaries that I had written all these years. Lokking from when I started going out with a guy during Uni days, when i am having down days with him, when I got my first job, and when i having trouble with my families and the diaries stop during 2003. Since then, havent been putting a word in there but just keep all the low time to myself. Looking back, I did not move forward much, goal is still so vague and i m still not happy or never been happy all these years....I have no idea what will make me happy and even tried to think deeply how should I make myself happy, but I never been able to find a solution till now. Maybe I am like what all said, 
bu gan ji mo'. When there's no one at my side accompanying me, I'm lost or rather starting to feel down by thinking all the unhappy past. I think I should start telling myself to be more independent, to stand on my own whatever it is.

Another Year older!!

Happy New Year!! It's another year older for me without any resolutions ......think my resolutions is to find a resolutions for the year.....HAHA.....

a week in S'pore

Had been down to S'pore for a week. Coming down for an interview at the beginning of the week and free for the whole week. I treat this as an escape out of home. There's good and bad staying with family. Good thing is you can save a lot....and bad thing is you lose the freedom and space for yourself. Had always wanted to get a work out of KL so that I have the reason to stay outside. You may say that I am not filial but I felt that it's a better way for me and my parents. At least in this way we won't quarrel on things that we don't agree mutually. 
2007 is coming around and am getting older. Hopefully the coming year will be better for me (though this year is not that good) and for all too....

24 hours shoot!!!

It had been a long time since i had 24 hours non stop shooting. And this Softlan shoot is tiring and made me realize that i'm getting old.....crew call starts at 5.30am and shoots end at 5 am the next day.....after this....singapore here i come!

lucky? unlucky?

I m not sure whether to say i m lucky or not? every time when i wish for something it won't happen. But after that things realized, but always come at not the right timing......this month i should be having two jobs, one of it was the postponed job from last month. Unfortunately i was unable to take up the job, as i have a few interviews due to attend. I was thinking am I right to give up money for the interviews which still yet to know whether I can get a permanent job a not.....**sigh**

My birthday meal

...overcooked lamb chop.....

My Chinese Birthday Meal at Italiannes ..... (coincidently this year it's just one day apart) . Had a glass of red wine, spaghetti with mussels. Yummy.....


bread with olive oil and vinegar - a very special starter

Toyota DeepaRaya Ad

2nd TVC job. Prep in only 6 days, with 42 talents (dancers) .......luckily is not that hard as TV3's. Have been hearing the song on and on the whole day shoot......and sweeping confetti all day long......and past 12 midnight is my birthday....have to spend half my birthday on bed sleeping after a loong day shoot.....*sigh*

TV3 raya ad preview....

Done this job in 10 days time,rushing jobs with lots of details.....hooo.....and i survived!!!

see we play with 'kerbau' (water buffalo) and imagine it's only used for 2 secs in the commercial, what a waste. And we have 'ayam serama' (a kind of chicken that they rear it as pet, it's petite & corky). Forgot to snap a picture of the BMW and our hero house also......

My first Producing Job

my first producing job ended yesterday. accidentaly deleted the panaromic view of the 'huge' scene, got only this satellite van, which cost over millions dollar and is the one and only one they have. (sounds like a TV commercial) hehehee....

Travel

Do you like to travel? What's ur purpose of travelling? For de-stressing on all the hardship at work? for knowing other countries culture? or just merely for a walk outside the house?
For me travelling is the time for me to talk to my inner self. I love to travel to others countries to see how other people live in the life, how ppl cope with their daily life. Especially love to have a map to strolling by myself looking at the shops, looking at the people and at the same time asking myself what i really want. This is the only time that I can have myself to my own, where I can think......how I wish I have a job just to travel.....that will be extreme wonderful......

Souless body

After all these years, I just realize that I'm a body without soul. I lost my dream, my dreams full of stories are all gone. Have been believing that I need to gain more technical hands on experience on the industry and hence after I grad, I have been pushing myself to grab every chance of production knowledge whenever I can. Yes, I did manage to know how to handle a production but at the same time, I had totally ignore the story telling ability of myself which I had been putting aside for the 5 years. Hopefully it's still not too late for me to start rolling the stone again in polishing my story telling skill now......keep my finger cross....

I Hate This kinda feeling

Why am I always in the position being blame for what I think is right? Why put me in the situation that I must attend to all your call and I doesn't have a choice? or even I'll be blame for being 'too much' just because I don't comply to it.....tf was right, would you start a conversation of no where to your 'ex'? Or even would you take too much care if something happen to your ex family? Not that I won't care, it's just I feel that it's such a 'dilemma' situation .....Till now, I still think that I can't be able to care so much...... call me selfish or whatever.....

test food for Simply Penang

have been shooting the food photography for my cousin's up coming cafe - Simply Penang

My best shot of the day

"Our Brain" a metaphor for "Computer"?? or vice versa

Heard this funny but true statement from a drama series ...

(translated from Cantonese)
" Our brain is like a computer, however, this computer can only have a
certain RAM, it cannot be upgrade to a larger capacity. Hence, we need
to dump the unnecessary memory and fill it all up with the happy
moments.
Forgot about the pasts..."

I guess this is all we need to be able to live strong in this world.....